LOL

yeah.... true. am not stick with my promise. yeah... am sorry3!

anyways, feel likes i want to write sum thing to get my head n heart straight on the line.
few hours ago, i'd watching film on max astro- i brought a zoo. very inspiring and motivating story on how to keep moving and never afraid to make the first step also- don't ever felled down, for long period (from my understanding).

well, it's about how a husband losing his beloved wife struggling to continued his life with two children. he quit, buy a place that have zoo in it. run it while his bank goes empty. till, he found out his late lovely wife keep a deposit for her family instead rather than saving her life. so, he tried his best to keep the zoo and re open it. in the way, he found new love and ready to build new life. end.

it's touch me. i just shed tears to think how this story reminds me how to get up again and be myself again to face the world. need and have to, for the sake of my life and most importantly for my own child.

i really hope, i can clear my mind and soul. its already a very long period for me to mourn about what happen in the past. yeah, i may smiling and acting childish lil bit, but that doesn't mean am already heal and my heart aren't crying.

:P